The Pain in My Heart

by Kelly Hall
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Wow. I wanted to grow old with you but things have changed.
I’m wondering where you are, why I can’t find you, why I miss you…
Why I can’t hear the beating of your heart and why you’re so far away.

You know, they say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire life to forget them.

You know I don’t want to dream about us being together. Okay, I admit that I never knew the true meaning of happiness. But then you came along, and regardless of our outcome I’m thankful for this experience, because never before has my heart smiled like it does when I’m with you.

And in case you were wondering, you mean everything to me.

There are no more tears left to cry. I know I want to be with you for the rest of my life. It’s funny how someone can break your heart and yet you still love them with all the little pieces.

I’m sorry I’m not perfect and we fight call the time, but when you said you don’t mean anything to me, I was for real. Because you mean everything in the world to me.

I know I’m not supposed to love you and I’m not supposed to care or supposed to live my life wishing you were here…not supposed to be wondering where you are or what you’re doing or who you’re with.

But I can’t help myself. I’m in love with you.

Okay, I said it: I love you with everything I’ve got! But I don’t want to think about you. The pain you have caused. I want you to be remembered as the one who smiles even when my heart is broken, the one who can always brighten up my day even if I can’t brighten up my own.

I love you and I’m sorry for hurting you. I want you back in my life.

Love you, bye.
 

Kelly Hall is a resident of Amarillo

The Gayly- 2/14/2016 @ 8:39 AM CST